Me, and the Seasons

Sometimes, I think that life is like a tv-drama. So, it’s like Gilmore Girls or Dawson’s Creek or even Smallville, only the main character is you. Not the dramatic parts of it (though sometimes things like that do happen in real life 😛 ), I’m talking about the seasons.

Our life’s divided into seasons. Sometimes, without we even realising it. See, a period of time, like your first year in college is a season. Your second and third are the next season.

These seasons are more easily recognized when it’s related with school. You start a new term, you start a new season. But it’s different when you’ve already finished school. You work. And at this point, the ending and the beginning of a season is often blurry. And very unpredictable.

You move into a new division. Read a book and suddenly all your life’s inspired by it. Your bestfriend’s getting married. You’re introduced to a bunch of great new friends (in this case, you can see yourself as a newcomer who appears in their third season of friendship and brings changes to the whole series, vice-versa 😛 ). Your colleague gets promoted. You stop falling for someone. You get a scholarship and go to UK.. Just mention it. There are so many endings, so many beginnings. One thing clear is that they often, or almost always, come in sudden.

And so, sometimes we just aren’t ready for it.

Even for an ending that’s very, very predictable (you planned it, actually), it’s not always easy to end something. Maybe you’re willing to let it go. Still, the thought of losing something always leave sadness, no matter how little it is.

But there’s no season that’s not pretty and colourful. (Even winter has its own beauty, right? 😉 ) And when you know you’re starting a new season, don’t you get excited to know what story it’ll bring?

I do. Sad and excited at the same time. So much it makes me wake up in the weirdest of time in the nights. Ah well, maybe it’s another thing but I think it’s one of the reasons why.

There are always changes in our life. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. We just have to accept it. And get ready (which is hard for me because I’m not so in to changes, haha 😀 *forget my nickname here*)

It surely has not much to do with this, but as I type this I remember one song from Dawson’s Creek soundtracks (only like the music, I never really watch the series), part of the lyrics says ‘Baby, I will win your love this season..’ Haha, menurutku itu ambigu, karena bukan musim semi atau panas tetapi season dalam series itu.. Oh yeah, I’m not in a battle to win someone’s heart, I just like the spirit 🙂

Right then, gotta go and get prepared for my last day of this season. Please pray for me that it’ll be a happy ending 😀 Have a nice day, people!

until we meet again

kotak surat. teh hangat di pagi hari. jus markisa. dering telepon. belajar bahasa. email. musik dari media playerku. chasing the rainbow. nama-nama spanyol. pensil biru. dering telepon. mesin faks. printer di ruang sebelah. pot bunga matahari. jendelaku. laci-laci. sajadah. Al Qur’an. matahari terbenam, dan lampu-lampu yang mulai dinyalakan. lift. kilauan lampu dari lantai sembilan. kue-kue. bakpia coklat paling lezat. es krim. menara di utara. pertanyaan, dan jawaban yang selalu sama..

lalu,

penunjuk arah berwarna hijau-putih. ranting-ranting pohon. kucing di dekat loket. zebracross. mobil-mobil yang melintas. bus yang kosong. tempat duduk di sudut. bulan purnama dari balik jendela. deretan pohon mahoni. air mancur. bunga-bunga berwarna merah muda. bayangan masjid di atas air. suara adzan saat ramadhan.

bulan sabit di atas gedung-gedung tinggi. langit senja merah muda. suara serangga. padang rumput yang tersisa. bunga putih di atas pagar.

dan akhirnya, rumah.

I have experienced everything. I’ve felt it all. And I am happy to. I hope we can still meet again someday (:

Dear Allah, I deeply thank You.


Oleh-oleh dari Salem

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Been spending the morning reading and talking on the phone and blogwalking, I found a nice article about Salem. Yes, that Salem, the one famous for its witch-trial.

This city has a mascot, which is also used for its schools and even its police cars. The mascot, in simpler words, can be found everywhere. And it is–guess what–a silhouette of a witch riding a broom in fullmoon night.

Now here’s the interesting part. Why are witches always associated with broomstick?

Begini ceritanya.. Zaman dahulu, ada wanita” yg membuat sendiri ramuan” untuk mengobati keluarga mereka yang sakit. Nah, mereka malah dianggap sebagai penyihir. Padahal, alasan utamanya adalah mahalnya harga obat-obatan.

Mungkin, untuk alasan penghematan dan kemudahan* plus mengikuti anjuran Pemerintah tentang Toga**, mereka menanam tanaman obat di kebun mereka sendiri. Sepertinya mereka juga tahu tentang humus yg menyuburkan tanah (atau jangan” teknologi kompos juga ya?), karena mereka sering ditemukan sedang menyapu sampah*** dan menumpuknya di atas persemaian atau tanah di mana mereka menanam tanaman obat.

Nah, selain itu, mereka percaya bahwa jika mereka melompati tanaman mereka dengan membawa sapu atau dengan menaiki sapu saat bulan purnama, tanaman mereka akan tumbuh lebih cepat (Baka mitai ja nai.. ^^; )..

Sekarang coba bayangkan, orang yang lewat di dekat kebun, dengan penerangan sinar bulan saja, apalagi ditambah penglihatan yang payah karena pengaruh alkohol, melihat semua itu tentunya akan mengira dirinya melihat seorang penyihir terbang dengan sapu di atas deretan semak rosemary..

Aneh-aneh, memang, kisah orang zaman dulu ) Ah, saya jadi pingin jalan-jalan ke Salem. Kayaknya saya bakalan senang tinggal di kota, dan sekolah di tempat yang logonya penyihir naik sapu terbang :p

cerita lengkap bisa dibaca di butterflybites.blogspot.com ;)

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  • ngga semua tanaman obat bisa ditemukan di tepi hutan, kan? Kadang kau harus mencari daun apalah itu namanya di puncak-puncak bukit..
  • * tanaman obat keluarga 😛
  • ** which should be fallen leaves and domestic, organic waste. Zaman dulu gitu loh 😛

Thanks to:

webjong.com and holydee.vox.com for the image

Eternally

Me no mae ni iru kimi ga sukoshi kagayaki
Mawari ga mienai
Watashitachi wa doko ni iru no

Zawameki hajimeta keshiki no naka ni
Mada kienaide ne
Mou nannimo kikoenai
But I can feel you breathe

Odoroku hodo kimagure na tenkai ni sukoshi dake
Watashi rashikunai kitai wo oh oh shiteru

I wanna be here eternally
Kono mama mitsume atte itai
I can feel you close to me
Itsu mademo soba ni wa irarenai
Kono shunkan dake wa zutto eien ni

Tatakai ni dekakeru mae no hitoyasumi
Anata to sugoshitai
Yakusoku wa kondo aeta toki ni
Can you hear me breathe?

Odoroku hodo de wa nai tenkai ni mo
Kandou shichau toki ga dare ni datte oh oh aru

I wanna be here eternally
Dare ni mo mitsukaranai tokoro ni
I can see you’re all I need
Ashita made tasuke wa iranai
Kono shunkan sae mo kitto just a fantasy

I can feel you close to me
Ano basho ni kaeranaku nattemo
Ima no kimochi dake wa zutto eien

I wanna be here eternally
I can see you are all I need
Kono shunkan dake wa eien ni

***

You sparkle a little in front of my eyes
I can’t see around me
Where are we?

Don’t disappear
Into the background that’s started to get noisy
I can’t hear anything anymore
But I can feel you breathe

This isn’t really like me, but I’m expecting, oh oh
A surprisingly whimsical development

I wanna be here eternally
I want us to keep gazing at each other like this
I can feel you close to me
I can’t stay by your side forever
I just want this moment to last forever

Before I go out to fight
I want to take a break with you
Promises are for the next time we see each other
Can you hear me breathe?

There are times, oh oh
When anyone would be excited by an unsurprising development

I wanna be here eternally
Somewhere where nobody can find us
I can see you’re all I need
I don’t need any help until tomorrow
Surely even this moment is just a fantasy

I can feel you close to me
Even if I can’t go back to that place
Just this feeling will last forever

I wanna be here eternally
I can see you’re all I need
Only this moment will last forever

Eternally-Utada Hikaru

I keep on humming this song today, I put it here just in case I still want to sing it this weekend 🙂

Moving On With You

Yonaka 3 ji a.m.
makuramoto no PHS
naru mo matteru
baka mitai ja nai?

It’s in the middle of the night, 3am
My cellphone’s by my pillow
I’m waiting for it to ring
Stupid, huh?

-utada hikaru, Moving On Without You

Ayolah. Sekarang ni bukan waktunya untuk bermenung-menung macam tu. Lepaskan dirimu dari kesedihan. Free your soul. Bukan lagi masanya untuk melamun dan berharap sesuatu akan terjadi.

Lakukan sesuatu! Buka jendelamu lebar-lebar! Biarkan sinar matahari masuk menggantikan sisa-sisa cahaya rembulan dan serbuk bintang masa kemarin yang membuatmu bersedih! Ambil sepatu khakimu dan berjalanlah keluar. Lihat pucuk-pucuk pohon itu. Lihat langit biru itu. Air mata yang kamu titikkan, kepingan-kepingan hati yang kamu sembunyikan, semua itu tak akan menghentikan semua hal untuk tetap berjalan. Lalu, Chang’e, apa gunanya bersembunyi di balik selimut?

Hentikan nada-nada sedih itu. Dengarkan Green Day! Dengarkan Mocca! Hentakkan kakimu sesuai iramanya. Segala sesuatu memang unpredictable, but in the end it’s right, jadi mengapa tak kau nikmati saat-saat terbaik hidupmu, sekarang?? 😀

Ayolah, Chang’e. Just spread your wings, dan bersiaplah untuk berdamai dengan dunia. Apa ya, kalimat tepatnya. Ah sudahlah, pokoknya ingatlah adegan saat Arai merentangkan tangannya seolah-olah berkata, “Dunia, sambutlah aku..” (Dan dunia benar-benar menyambutnya, lho 😀 )

Cerialah, Chang’e. Hidup ni terlalu berarti untuk disia-siakan dengan kesedihan!!
Dan tentu saja, karena dirimu lebih cantik saat sedang tersenyum (Wanna bet? 😀 )


counting down the days, cherry blossom, and arai

Good news!

Insya Allah, starting from next year my dad will be working in Jogja again. I’m so thankful, because it will make everything easy and it’s really nice to know that dad’s going to be around. Well, though we’ll still be far from each other, at least my mom and dad won’t have to have a long distance relationship anymore, hehe 😛

Not only that, now I’m counting down the days before the first day of the FALL SEMESTER 😀 ! I’m so excited. Whenever bad thing comes my way, I will only remember that and suddenly it will go away. The bad thing, I mean. But it has some side effects too: I’m having a kind of insomnia lately. Not the one that makes you lay on your bed, staring at the ceiling for a long time, thinking about everything… Not that bad.. But this one makes me feel.. I don’t know. Just add a little bit of moonlight, and here comes the lunacy that makes you confess everything for the sake of “I don’t wanna be a liar..” thing. *heeavy sigh*

Oh btw, finally my Mom and Dad watched Laskar Pelangi. Mom told me that Dad kept on asking where were the ‘Kuli Ngambat’ because he hadn’t read Laskar Pelangi and he thought that the movie was about Arai and Ikal ^^ . That drove us to a conversation about who would be perfect to be Arai. I said that the guy from the 3 commercial would be great, but (as always) my Mom said he wouldn’t. (“Arai is gentler than that..”) Oh really? I think he’s fine..

Uhmm.. What else? *tilting head, thinking*

I think that’s all now. Oh by the way I have changed (again) the header of this blog so now it has the pinkish look 😀 Love it so!

Rite then, I hope yáll feel cheerful (even if just a little bit) and not lonely today. Have a great time, everyone 😀 !

:tak perlulah aku keliling dunia-gita gutawa:

I say: Perlu!

almost fullmoon

Terus bertanya-tanya. Mengenai keberadaan. Tentang rasa sepi yang menjadi jejaknya.

Bukankah tidak semua kata, harus terkatakan?

Saya lelah.

Dear Chang’e: being melancholic is strictly prohibited 🙂 .